Love hurts and that’s the tea!
So I’m watching a scary movie with my aunt and her bf and in all honesty I’m not really Interested in the movie but my aunt wanted me to bond with her . I still feel awkward being here but I know I’ll get used to it just how I get used to everything, I just hate how shes so in my business and asks me where I’m going if I leave and when I’m coming back. Ugh biggest pet peeve, and then yesterday she asked me if I still talk to adrian and I legit just told her how were still a thing 100% and she seemed happy for me so I’m not mad :) I wish I could just tell everyone I hate hiding but tbh my whole family is problematic so I just dont think they’re deserving of knowing my life. Also def gunna stop smoking for a bit if not entirely I came home after a sesh with my love and got the worst headache and felt a comedown in a sense, the lingering effects are the the worst, my brain feels so cloudy. Idk why I’ve been so nostalgic of everything in my life, like am I guna die orrrr.. also proud of myself for applying to another job, I know I can do 2 jobs if I want ! If my bf can do it why not me 😎 I’ve done it before too lol when I was doing Rita’s (fuk u) and cleaning houses sooo yee. Tbh ima miss raving I found myself wanting to go to another one soon and tbh I might go to Big Love, I havent been to a valentine rave and tbh I’m dying to goooo! I’m def good off molly for a long time though, even though deep down I’ll always miss it 😂 but I def need AT LEAST a 6 month break if not a whole ass year. The drug is sooo beautiful, it’s not worth getting used to it. But anyways this movie is lowkey scary!